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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Bridge over troubled waters.....

Bridge Over Troubled Waters
written by Simon & Garfunkel

When you're weary, feeling small
When tears are in your eyes,
I will dry them all.
I'm on your side,

Oh, when times get rough
And friends just can't be found.
Like a bridge over troubled waters
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled waters
I will lay me down.

When you're down and out,
when you're on the street
When evening falls so hard,
I will comfort you.
I'll take your part,
Oh when darkness comes
And pain is all around
Like a bridge over troubled waters
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled waters
I will lay me down.

Sail on silver girl (children), sail on by
Your time has come to shine,
all their dreams are on their way
See how they shine,
Oh when you need a friend
I'm sailing right behind
Like a bridge over troubled waters
I will ease your mind
Like a bridge over troubled waters,
I will ease your mind.I'll ease your mind.
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I remember this song when I was in the First Grade. My very young teacher used to play this song on the record player (now I'm dating myself mentioning that antique). This song has been redone by LeAnn Rimes and most recently by Michael W. Smith for the Christian music world.

In a few weeks will be my 14th wedding Anniversary. I wish I could say that things are wedding bliss, but that would be a lie. When I said those vows in from of friends, family, and ultimately God, I had intended to keep my promise to be true and faithful. I broke that promise.....

My wife and I share a cell phone currently. She was looking through the dialed numbers and came across a number that she did not recognize. I am a temporary employee at work, so I am not allowed to have a phone that has long distance capabilities. I could have used another phone in another person's office, but I chose to use my personal cell phone to call some clients instead. Needless to say that started another argument where she was basically accusing me of having an affair on her with another woman. She is so far from the truth. Which would hurt worse: an affair with another woman or with another man? I also have almost been caught chatting on gay.com late at night and she is suspicious as she knows that I am not just playing solitaire on the computer late at night.

"Like a bridge over troubled waters..." My marriage is in trouble and I don't know how to correct it. I am afraid.....My parents were divorced, so I witnessed first hand the pain and hurt that divorce brings on both the marriage partners and the children. I am lacking greatly in the romance department. I would like some practical advice how to salvage my marriage.

Your input is appreciated.

2 Comments:

Blogger Flip said...

Hi Restored,

Well, I don't really have much advice for you. My life got better when I started getting honest with myself about what I really want out of life, and trying to understand the real needs I am trying to meet through my extra-curricular activities. I have succeeded in fully accomplishing neither, but at least I am aware of the need.

I don't think there are any perfect answers, but those two steps (along with sobering up in my case) have brought more peace to my family's and my life.

Hang in there.

Flip

5/26/2006 04:08:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You need to be honest with yourself and with your wife. You are wasting your life, and your wife's, by living a lie. And what lesson do you really want to send to your children? That they should not be true to themselves? They will grow up and know someday that the "perfect" marriage they thought their parents had was in fact a charade. You are not doing them, yourself, or your wife any favors by prolonging this deception. And you are being cowardly.

I do not want to be mean-spirited. I assume that you have this blog because you need to talk about your situation and need feedback from others.

7/12/2006 11:34:00 AM  

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