I still believe.....

"I Still Believe"- The Call:

I been in a cave for forty days
Only a spark to light my way
I wanna give out
I wanna give in
This is our crime
This is our sin

But I still believe
I still believe
Through the pain
And the grief
Through the lies
Through the storms
Through the cries
And through the wars
Oh, I still believe

Flat on my back
Out a sea
Hopin' these waves
Don't cover me
I'm turned and tossed
Upon the waves
When the darkness comes
I feel the grave

But I still believe
I still believe
Through the cold
And the heat
Through the pain
And through the tears
Through the crowds
And through the cheers

Oh, I still believe

I'll march this road
I'll climb this hill
Down on my knees if I have to
I'll take my place
Up on this stage
I'll wait 'til the end of time
For you

Like everybody else
I'm out on my own
Walkin' the streets
Look at the faces
That I meet
I feel like i like I want to go home
What do I feel
What do I know

But I still believe
I still believe
Through the shame
And through the grief
Through the heartache
Through the tears
Through the waiting
Through the years
For people like us
In places like this
We need all the hope
That we can get

Oh, I still believe
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This song was originally performed by The Call and covered by Christian singer Russ Taff on his self-titled CD around 1988. At that time in my life, I was living in the frozen northern state of Alaska. Alaska is a very vast and beautiful state. It is known as the "Land of Extremes". Currently, Alaska is experiencing 22+ hours of sunlight. It is a land of extreme sunlight and extreme darkness. There are places within the state that have both 67 days where the sun does not rise (winter solstice) and the same 67 days (summer solstice) where the sun does not set.

It contains the highest mountain in north America -- Mount McKinley located in Denali National Park. Alaska has some of the most majestic and beautiful scenery. I highly encourage you to visit this state at some time in your life.

I lived there for four year in the late 1980's. Some people suffer from "Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)" due to the lack of sunlight and extreme cold temperatures. The coldest I went through was 67 degrees below zero. AKA FRIGID! Your flesh would freeze in 15 seconds if exposed to the elements.

This song helped me through those dark days of depression. I would crank this song and literally yell the lyrics "in places like this, we need all the hope that we can get" My Christian faith at times has felt like the frozen tundra that I had lived in.

One time I took a drive and parked near a road side where the mountains were very awe inspiring. It was there that God impressed on me that I was loved inspite of my struggles with same-sex attractions. I was hoping for deliverance but that never came.

"I still believe... Through the heart ache and all the tears".......This song still moves me. I get reminded of how awesome creation is.

If you want to see nature's beauty at its finest, take a trip to Alaska. Don't just take a cruise to the Southeast Inside Passage but visit Fairbanks, Anchorage, or at least Denali N.P. It will be a vacation you won't forget.....and it may restore your faith also.